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Saturday, August 25, 2007
TODAY FAMILY DAY IS TO I SAY IS NOT A SUCCESS MEETING AS
BECAUSE OF THIS, I DIDNT HAVE THE TIME TO CHAT AND TALK WITH DILLON TODAY AT SYC.
HAHA I JUST FEEL THAT LIFE IS SO MEANINGLESS. Labels: FAMILY DAY
Friday, August 24, 2007
NOW I A M TRYING TO STOP ALL THIS STUPID THINGS AND MAKE ME FEEL JUST A NORMAL PERSON GO ON NORMAL LIVES. I AM VERY SAD THERE'S IT Labels: DO NOT KNOW WHO I AM
I WAS READING THROUGH MY EMAIL FROM FRIENDSTER AND I SAW THIS FRIENDSTER EMAIL SAYING THAT DILLON'S BIRTHDAY IS NEXT WEEK. SO I DECIDED TO SEND HIM A EARLY WISHING TO HIM. THIS IS THE MESSAGE I SEND TO HIM, "HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO YOU HOPE THAT YOU WILL DO WELL IN ALL YOUR EXAMINATION AND YOUR DREAMS WILL COME TRUE." HE REPLIED ME THIS "HAHA HOPE SO." AND THIS IS A SHOCKING TIME, FOR THE PAST FEW MONTHS SENDING HIM SMS HE NEVER REPLIED SO FAST IN 2MINS AND THIS BRIGHTEN UP MY DAYS. THEN AFTER THAT I REPLIED HIM ANOTHER MESSAGE ASKING HIM WHETHER HE IS COMING TO THE FLINT BATCH 4 TRAINING TOMORROW AFTERNOON. HE REPLIED ME SAYING THAT MAY BE AND YOU. BUT I AM SURPRISED THAT HE REPLIED ME SO FAST AS HE ALWAYS DO NOT REPLIED TO ME SO FAST. I TOLD HIM THAT ACTUALLY I GOT A LOT OF PROBLEMS DURING THIS FEW DAYS, I HOPE THAT HE WILL MIND ME WHEN I SEE HIM I DO NOT TALK TO HIM AS I AM AFRAID I WILL SCOLD HIM AND THINK OF SOME NEGATIVE THINGS. HE ASKED ME WHAT HAPPEN? AND I TELL ONE OF THE BIGGEST PROBLEM I FACED WAS NOW TO BE EMO ADN STOP TALKING AND CHATTING WITH THE WORLD NOW. AFTER HE SMS ME WHAT HAPPEN AND THEN FROM YEATERDAY UNTIL NOW HE DID NOT SMS ME BACK ANYMORE. UNTIL NOW I DO NOT KNOW WHETHER HE IS ANGRY WITH ME OR OTHER THINGS ELSE. I AM THINKING THAT IS THERE ANYTHING HAPPENING TO ME OR I AM JUST A FREAK TO OTHER PEOPLE. WHY I JUST CANT FIND A REAL AND BEST FRIEND TO SUPPORT ME IN THE MENTALLY MANNER LIKE DILLON BUT HE JUST WANT TO CHAT WITH ME FOR JUST A LITTLE WHILE. GOHONZON WHY JUST CANT DILLON BE MY BEST FRIENDS ALWAYS NOT JUST A SMALL PERIOD OF TIME. I AM VERY SAD ALWAYS NOW, I HOPE THAT THE STUPID AND IRRATING DIFFCULTIES CAN GET AWAY FROM ME. I AM VERY SCARED OF THEM. Labels: SAD AND HAPPY DAY
Sunday, August 19, 2007
BUT I JUST DO NOT KNOW AM I TOO SENSITIVE TO DILLON OR WHATEVER REASONS. HE JUST DO NOT FEEL LIKE NOT TALKING TO ME UNTIL I SAY SOMETHING LIKE I AM GOING HOME. BUT REALLY I AM GOING TO SATY THIS THE LAST TIME. IF THERE IS ONE DAY, I REALLY CAN NOT TAKE THE STRESS THAT GOHONZON GAVE ME LIKE THIS ONE. I WILL GO TO FIND ONE OF THE TALLEST BUILDING OR MY BLOCK JUMP DOWN AND END MY LIFE THERE. I AM NOW CONTROLLING MY STRESS LEVER PLEASE DONT GIVE ME ANYMORE STRESS I REALLY REALLY CAN'T TAKE IT. Labels: STRESS
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++ kokarmeng nickname: monkeykorkor , 1. I AM SORRY FOR WHAT I HAVE DONE IN THE PAST ALL THE NEGATIVE ACTIONS AND WORDS. THANK YOU FOR GOHONZON FOR GIVING ME SO MUCH GOOD BENEFITS IN THE PRESENCE. 2. FOR MY STUIDES IN 2008 & 2009 MUST BE THE BEST IN ORDER FOR ME TO SHOW THE POWER OF THE MYSTIC LAW- GOHONZON. I MUST GET TOP TEN IN POSITION IN MY CLASS LEVEL AND SCORE THE BEST FOR MYSELF. 3. DILLON NG YAN YANG MUST ALWAYS BE MY BEST FRIEND. FURTHERING STRENGTHEN THIS FRIENDSHIP TO BECOME A UNSHAKEABLE BY BOTH OF US. HE WILL ALWAYS BE THERE AT ANYTIME AND TREAT ME BETTER. 4. KAIYANG AND BUDI MUST ALWAYS BE MY BEST FRIENDS. FURTHERING STRENGTHEN THIS FRIENDSHIP TO BECOME A UNSHAKEABLE BY BOTH OF US. HE WILL ALWAYS BE THERE AT ANYTIME.CALVIN CHONG CAN BE MY BEST FRIEND AND HE MUST COME OUT FOR ACTIVITIES. 5. CALVIN CHEONG MUST NOT BE ANGRY WITH ME AND MUST COME OUT FOR ACTIVITIED AND CONTINUE HIS JOURNEY OF HUMAN RELOLUTION. 6. DERRICK TING, JUN HONG AND OTHER FD STUDENTS MUST COME OUT FOR ACTIVITIES AND START TO PRACTICE THE BUDDHISM. I MUST PULL THAT DERRICK TING & JUN HONG TO BECOME A GREAT LEADER IN THE FUTURE. 7. I MUST GO TO THE TRIP IN CAMBODIA FOR THE TRIP HELPING THE NEEDYS OR TRAINING TO BECOME A GREAT LEADER. LEARNING AND HELPING THE POOR, KNOWING THEIR PAIN. 8. TARGETING TO HAVE 10 POINTS AND BELOW [SINGLE DIGIT] FOR MY O’LEVELS IN 2009. 9. KELVIN WONG, DE YUAN, ZHI JIE, MS WEE, LIPING AND BUDI MUST COME OUT FOR OUR ACTIVITIES. 10. THERE MUST BE A SUM OF MONEY TO DO MY KOSEN-RUFU NO MATTER I EARN IT OR OTHER SOURCE OF INCOME. 11. MISUNDERSTANDING AND PROBLEMS THAT I HAVE WITH MY FRIENDS ALL WILL BE DELETED. 12. HOMEVISITING STUDENTS MUST BE ABLE TO COME OUT FOR ACTIVITIES. 13. THE FRIENDSHIP WITH MY NEW CLASSMATES NEXT YEAR MUSTN’T HAVE ANY COMMUNICATION PROBLEMS. 14. THE REPUTATION IN SOKA AND SCHOOL MUST BE VERY GOOD. NO COMMUNICATION PROBLEMS WITH MY PEERS AND OTHER PEOPLE. 15. TARGETING 19 FD STUDENTS IN MY FD MEETING & DISTRICT. 16. THIS YEAR ALL THE NON-ACTIVE FD MEMBERS MUST COME OUT FOR ACTIVITIES. 17. EVERYONE WILL BE STRUGGLING WITH OBSTACLES AND PROBLEMS AND OVERCOME THEM. 18. THERE WILL BE MORE POTENTIAL ICs COMING TO HELP FD. - - - - HOPE ALL THIS WILL COME TRUE - - - - ++ the old files ++2007-07-08++2007-07-22++2007-07-29++2007-08-05++2007-08-12++2007-08-19++2007-09-02++2007-09-09++2007-10-14++2007-11-11++2007-11-25++2007-12-02++2007-12-09++2007-12-23++2007-12-30++2008-01-06++2008-01-13++2008-02-03++2008-02-10++2008-02-17++2008-02-24++2008-03-02++2008-03-09++2008-03-16++2008-03-23++2008-05-25++2008-06-01++2008-06-22++2008-06-29++2008-07-06++2008-07-13++2008-07-20++2008-08-03++2008-08-17++2008-08-24++2008-08-31 ++ network neighborhood chocbanana[trixieandtheresa]++ supports ++ display "w4rnawarni : the computer (ADFree)" designed by : w4rnawarni @ blogskins - do not remove this part! |